My First 5K That Turned Into A 10K

Hi friends! Just sitting down and wanting to do a little writing and a little chatting tonight! First of all I have to say this OMG my legs, and sides hurt lol! Second of all I love it! Saditistc sounding yes but good yes as well! Yesterday I spent the day with some of the best friends I have in my life! I even made a new friend too! I had the time of my life with Nancy, Diana, Melissa, Derek and Joseph! Joseph's mom and dad were in attendance too yay love his parents they rock! The people who work with the show casting directors, previous contestants, Bob were all fabulous it was deffantly a big positive experience! I am so glad that I did this! I have found that the whole experience over the last few months with the casting call, applicatoin process has been nothing but something that has been positive for me and making me stronger and making me believe in myself even more so! I am getting to exactly where I need to be mentally so I can get there physically! Back to the 5k I finished it in about an hour and 3 minutes but I finished it running. I have to tell you the feeling of running acrossed that finish line was freaking awesome! The feel of completing it with NO complicatoins was fantabulous! Then Pete Thomas motivated Derek so much that Derek wanted to do the 5k again so me, Joseph, Sue and Dustin followed suite and went with Derek for a second go at it turning the 5k into a 10k! Derek by the way did amazingly! We made it through the second 5k without incident until I TRIPPED at the finish line lmao Diana has video to prove it lol hell I posted it on my page so you guys could see it as well cause if you can't laugh at yourself and the stupid crap you do then tell me who can you laugh at really? But after the trip both of my calves got these horrible cramps in them HOLY SMOKES both legs at one time come on give a girl a break lol but I got okay it's all good! Sat down for a bit drank some water then got up and figured what the hell lets go see some Biggest Losers ;-) Had to see two of my favorites Amy and Phil lol But also got to see Sherry, and Ali too how sweet! Bob was already gone by the time we got back *sigh* but hey I got a high five from him and I swore I wouldn't wash my hand lol but hey I gotta cause my hands were all sweaty too from yesterday lol! However back to the choice to go wait in line to see Ms. Sherry, Amy and Phil standing there in line it hit me like a rock that terrible I'm gonna barf my guts up feeling! I was dizzy and just felt like total and utter crap! Sue my new friend was standing next too me and well Joseph popped up as he always manages to do when he's needed lol and he found me a place to sit down and chill for a bit the people at the tent there were very nice to me gave me water and etc and cooled me off as did my friend. Every bit of color was gone from my face. I had a few more spells like that thankfully no puking occured! My worst fear was that I'd get up there to Ms.Sherry,Amy and Phil and I'd totally barf ewwwww bad impression to make hee hee I'm certain they are thankful that I managed to keep in down ha ha! But after all the day's fun we went to Maragritaville for some food, and fun I kept it good I had a salad yay Lori! Doing the 5k once made me feel amazing but doing it twice made me realise just who is in charge here....I am in charge here only I can fix me, sure I could have gotten cast for the show but unless that change comes from within the show is only a temp. fix they can hand me tools, they can work me out till I do puke, but they can't fix me 100% that kind of fix for someone like me has to come from me I have to want it so bad that I'll walk miles and miles! That I'll do whatever to get what accomplishments I want! I have to take life by the horns and I have to wrestle with it and make it what I want! I have to realise that it is perfectly OKAY to put me first sure I have five kids, a husband, a house, I'm a full time student but you know what unless this mother of five wife of one and Criminal Justice student fixes herself mentally and physically I will be worthless to myself and my family! So Yesterday was the first day of the rest of my life! I will make it next year I will run that 5k at Myrtle Beach! I am totally addicted to the 5k's now! All I can think about is which one's next I have my eye on one right now! I am going to sign up for on pay day and go get me some new shoes! Life is good! You guys all have to realise that true change comes from within you! If you want it go get it! If I can do a 5 or 10k so can you! I am so glad that Derek let Pete(thank you both actually) motivate him to do that 5k again because it was what did it for me it is the moment I have needed for a long time to complete this to do this to be done witht he life I have lived for about 31 years now trapped in a body that is going to fail me if I fail it one more time! I wont spend another 31 years this way! I can't do it and I will not do it to me any longer I deserve this! Thanks everyone for your love, and support!