Ooopss I Did It Again

So it's oopss I did it again! I just don't get it why can't I just say no to foods I know are going to make me gain weight? Why is so much time spent with family and friends spent around food and eating and what are we eating, when are we eating it's like our lives at time do nothing but revolve around food! We're happy we eat, we're sad we eat, we're bored..yep you guessed it we eat! Shouldn't we just be eating to live not living to eat? At times I think hmm maybe I should do the surgery, other times I think nah I couldn't live like that but hell I can't live like this either! I know it's a matter of time before my weight catches up with my health and gives me issues you'd think that would be motivation enough wouldn't you? I don't know where that motivation went when I was doing so good I wish I could find it! But now I have stocked up healthy foods, snacks and what not in the house so maybe this will stop me from me making bad choices. SO stay tuned will she find her motivation? Will she finally say goodbye to being over weight okay morbidly obese...stay tuned we shall see... Oh by the way I did invest in a super awesome treadmill it's been in the house three days how many times have I used said treadmill ZERO times somethings gotta give my lifestyle is super busy with school, kids, and housework!