Weight Loss Surgery For You Or Not For You

Hi friends this post is on weight loss surgeries! I have many friends who have done this method of weight loss and you know what I think hey if that's the path they want to or need to go down to get it done then good for them! Those who understand that it is not the end all cure all for weight loss are the ones who will be successful, those who understand that it takes eating the right things and working out to maintain their weight loss and understand in the end no matter which way you go you can't go back to your old habits. I have friends who have been very successful as using this as a tool it is NOT the easy way out trust me on that cause I've thought about going this rout myself and decided at the current time it isn't the way I want to go cause I just don't trust myself to not gulp down a big glass of water or not measure my food properly and end up doing more harm to myself than good. What brought on this blog well simply a conversation with my ex this past weekend! His current wife is going to have the lapband procedure next year, frankly I don't see her as a good candidate in my opinion while she most defiantly meets the weight requirements and the physical ailments psychologically I don't think it's going to do her any good because she hasn't ever been successful at changing her eating habits! She is going into this thinking this is the easy way out boy she is in for a rude awakening! It is people like this who don't see this as a tool but see it as an easy fix who end up in the end either hurting their selves or gaining what they lose back and put their selves through physical pain all for nothing in the end! She decided all this after my casting call and my article in the newspaper so I do believe it has driven her through insecurity's to do this. She always has thought I wanted my ex husband back and would come after him or if I looked better than her he'd want me rather than her. I have assured her more times than I have fingers and toes I sure as hell don't want him I mean come on what's to miss about a man who use to choke you, push you around, and tell you stuff like no one else would ever want you, your fat, your ugly, you have children, your stupid, your ignorant, your a bitch and your a whore! Oh yes uh huh what a prince charming! I'd just as soon chew my left arm off than ever go back to that sort of abusive relationship! I advocate people doing this weight loss journey for their selves not for fear of losing a spouse, but for fear of losing their own lives! For if you do not do it for you well it wont last you have to make yourself your main reason then others can follow for instance I am doing this for myself, and for my children and for my future grandchildren! I want to be around for a very long time and I want to spend it healthy not falling apart not being able to enjoy my life or my family! So this is the one thing that is totally okay if your "selfish"! If I get to a point where I want to try the surgery I will but for me it's about trust and I don't trust me lol so I will do it the way that I am! It's a personal choice as for which tools you choose to use on this fun filled up and down trip! Find yours and use them well! Remember it isn't easy, you didn't gain all of this in one day you wont lose it in one day! There are NO easy answers!

What I Put In My Mouth And Other Random Tips

I have been asked quite a few times what I eat and how much! So this is what this blog is all about! First and foremost I do my best to get in about 1200 calories a day on a high calorie day which I usually have once a week maybe about 1400-1500 of HEALTHY calories! First and foremost when you make this choice to eat right you have to rid yourself of the unhealthy foods that are lurking in your fridges or cabinets if you just leave them in there well they are there to tempt you so get a garbage bag and toss em out! Your next step would be to replace your unhealthy foods with healthy foods. One of my best tips is when grocery shopping don't go to the store hungry cause then you'll be buying EVERYTHING and probably stuff you shouldn't have! Stuff you'd want to get rid of would be soda's even the diet ones I don't have anything to do with them none of them are honestly good for you! Water should be the number one thing you should be drinking it is very very important, how much water? Well simple take your weight divide it by 2 so if your 300 pounds like I was when you started you divide it by 2 you get 150 and that is how many ounces of water you should take in. I also drink tea sweetened by Truvia it's 0 calories can't beat that! Crystal Lite Pure Fitness is also good! You want to stay away from a lot of fruit juices, soda's and stuff like that! I use skim milk sometimes Almond Milk. Now as for breakfast stuff I stock in my kitchen for breakfast are: Egg Whites, fat free cheese(I use this for more than just breakfast), turkey bacon, turkey sausage, multigrain cherrios, special K! Whole Wheat Bread, oatmeal steel cut is also good for breakfast! Stock up in fresh veggies you like, fresh fruits, seasoning is key to make your food interesting you want to stay away from too much salt I use sea salt when I do put salt in my foods but garlic powder, cilantro, chili powder, basil, and etc are your friends lol trust me no one likes boring food! Meats I get are lean cuts of meat mostly boneless skinless chicken breast, ground turkey. For snacks I use Almonds, yogurt Iusually get yoplate lite but I have found that lite and fit by dannon is less calories in fact only 80 calories! Of course I also use the fruits for snacks as well. Sometimes I'll indulge in a 100 calorie pack those are rare moments I do keep 100 calorie popcorn bags on hand most of the time. Preping your food and snacks at the first of the week can be a big help to keep you focused and on track! On day's I have a lot going on school work, kids, house and etc I will grab a Smart One the weight watcher frozen meal the bad thing about those is a lot of sodium are in them most of the time. So there you have it what I eat my very basics maybe that'll give you some idea what you need to stay away from! Now the best way to eat is every 3 hours or so to keep your metabolism going! Breakfast, snack, lunch, snack, dinner, snack(sometimes I don't get this one in). Oh and a dressing I found that is really good if you are trying to cut out carbs is Ken's Steakhouse Ranch dressing most of the time I do an oil and vin dressing. Also whole wheat pasta's and brown rice! I don't use white rice or regular pasta! Keep it as natural as you can and do your best to stay away from processed foods! Make sure you eat within 30 minuets of waking up to get that metabolism going and water water water can't stress water enough it's one of my greatest downfalls to and when I do drink it I can tell the difference! So thats all I have for today! Have a good one!

Frustration

While this may not really have anything to do with weightloss I have to get it out of my system! My lord my family is driving me banannas! Okay I went away from ONE day and ONE night to NC leftmy oldest, hubby and two baby's in SC took the other two to their father's house in NC and went to hang out with a few friends and enjoy an awesome singer/songwritter show and it was fabulous Sunday was great too love my friends thanks yall! However I came home to hubby fussing bout my oldest and my oldest fussing about my hubby. THEN the mess my house was in I was NOT happy they trashed my house toy's everywhere, writing on the hallway wall just a generel mess! PLUS they brought the dog in and didn't watch him nor take him back out and guess who peed and pooped around the house? That's it I'm getting rid of the dog if no one else can be bothered to be responsible with him I'm done! It's rediculous why do I have to be the always responsible! Okay as if my night couldn't possibly get worse my oldest informed me that she wanted to marry her fiance after she turns 18 excuse me you still have SEVEN months of high school left WAIT! I was told 3-4 years if I allowed him to purpose to her! Then she wanted me to let them live here in my house while he looks for a job and she finishes school umm how about HELL NO! No no if you are grown enough to get married then you are grown enough to get out there and support yourselves sorry I had FIVE children not SIX and I will not support a grown person who I didn't birth! Then my mother this morning oh lets talk about her my oldest can do no wrong and I can say nothing right so you know what I love my mother but for today she is on ignore! I told her goodbye and hung up the phone am I bad for not answering it now while she calls back! I'm sick of it I love her but I'm tired of the constant crap I get over my child like I'm not suppose to disagree with her fine you let the two of them live with you then it ain't happening here I got married at 18 I know what kind of stress that is!LIFE IS NOT EASY even sitting here as an almost 36 year old woman life still isn't easy and I still don't have all the answers and I stress daily! Oh she isn't going to have kids for about 4 years well you know what my friends Life happens even when we don't plan it sometimes! Life is expensive and jobs are few! Then my mom says you said this and that when you were her age and frankly I think the woman is confusing me with my big brother...*sigh* seriously I'm starting to wonder about her memory! I need this vent and I need to get it out of my system before I boil over! How come I can't have just one weekend of happiness in my life? *sigh*

My Little Poem of Letting Go...Thank You!

Thanks for the years of torment and tears
Thanks for all the insecurity and fears.
Thanks for all the hard times I went through
Thank you for just being you.
Now I’m just going to be me
Learning how I should really be.
Not afraid anymore
To take a chance or open a door.
For years I was held down by the chains
The chains from all the pains
Of growing up not feeling accepted
Just over and over again…rejected
Funny how I spent years worrying how others see me..
Funny how I felt myself I couldn’t be..
But now more than ever I have learned
I’d rather play with fire and risk being burned.
I’m through hiding within myself
And putting my life upon a shelf..
I’m closing the book on the old me
And going on to be who I am suppose to be!

Feeling Good About Me

You know for the first time in like forever I have found that I'm feeling pretty damn good about myself! The whole casting call was an experience that gave me a confidence boost that I needed! Growing up overweight took a lot from me living as an overweight (obese) adult has taken a lot from me as well! I find myself putting me on the back burner, I find that I honestly don't feel like I matter, I find that I avoid eye contact, I find that I avoid meeting new people, all of this due to how I was treated by my peers growing up! I have lived in fear of putting myself out there and I have accepted mediocrity all my life! But for the first time in forever I put it out there took the chance of being told no your not good enough for this! I went in there looked the casting director in the eye and told him about Lori and what her hopes were and what she wanted, and I got his attention and I made an impression and that call back has put new wind in me it has given me my confidence back, it has shown me that there is not one thing that I can not do! It has shown me that I don't have to settle, I don't have to put me last that I do matter and I will forever and ever be grateful for that life changing day! I'm formulating my plan to start working out again I have got the foods I need to have just need to work on balance and working out! I'm a winner and I will win this battle with my weight! I will never let anyone have that kind of control over my life ever again it's my life I am in control of it! I feel unstoppable currently I haven't had these kinds of feelings ever and I wont lose it either! I hope all my friends realize that their lives are in their hands, they shouldn't settle they should keep on moving till they get what they want out of life you only get one shot folks so do something fabulous for you! And as always remember Determination and Drive is what gets you there....
xoxoxo

The Biggest Loser Season 11

So as most of my facebook friends know on July 31st I threw caution to the wind I stepped out of my comfort zone and I went to the casting call for one of my favorite shows THE BIGGEST LOSER! This was a big step for me seriously! I went on July 31 to Columbia,SC pictures, application and VIP pass from where I went to the book signing that Amy and Phil had at the YMCA earlier in the week and I put myself out there! To my surprise I recieved a call from the casting director that did my interview, me Lori actually got a call! They were hoping that I had a family meber to join me saddly no I didn't! I went through a bunch of different emotions saddness because I was just that damn close! Happiness because for once in my life I wasn't the last pick, I was good enough, someone actually liked what they saw i me and that my friends is what I'm taking from this experience if I don't hear from the casting crew ever again I am taking with me a sense of pride, a sense of being good enough, of being wanted or thought of in that mannor! I hope and pray for somethng wonderful to happen but I know no matter what I can do this! I bring away with me more determination to reach my goals, hopes that even if The Biggest Loser doesn't take me that I can find away to not only help myself with this weight loss but to help others like me as well! It is a very strong desire I have and some how some way I will do this I will lose the weight, I will keep it off and I will reach out to others an I will help them as well! I will do my best to help others not to feel the rejection I have felt for the majority of my life! I will go on and I will do something not sure well this weight loss journy will lead me but I'm ready to find out one day at a time, one step at a time! With or without The Biggest Loser! I have seen so many people just sit here wasting away hoping to make it on the show because they feel it is their only hope in this life, and that is sad this show does help granted but for it to continue to work you have to show that you are determined enough to keep it up long after the show is over and you have gone home! Determination and drive is what gets you there! Remember that!