You know for the first time in like forever I have found that I'm feeling pretty damn good about myself! The whole casting call was an experience that gave me a confidence boost that I needed! Growing up overweight took a lot from me living as an overweight (obese) adult has taken a lot from me as well! I find myself putting me on the back burner, I find that I honestly don't feel like I matter, I find that I avoid eye contact, I find that I avoid meeting new people, all of this due to how I was treated by my peers growing up! I have lived in fear of putting myself out there and I have accepted mediocrity all my life! But for the first time in forever I put it out there took the chance of being told no your not good enough for this! I went in there looked the casting director in the eye and told him about Lori and what her hopes were and what she wanted, and I got his attention and I made an impression and that call back has put new wind in me it has given me my confidence back, it has shown me that there is not one thing that I can not do! It has shown me that I don't have to settle, I don't have to put me last that I do matter and I will forever and ever be grateful for that life changing day! I'm formulating my plan to start working out again I have got the foods I need to have just need to work on balance and working out! I'm a winner and I will win this battle with my weight! I will never let anyone have that kind of control over my life ever again it's my life I am in control of it! I feel unstoppable currently I haven't had these kinds of feelings ever and I wont lose it either! I hope all my friends realize that their lives are in their hands, they shouldn't settle they should keep on moving till they get what they want out of life you only get one shot folks so do something fabulous for you! And as always remember Determination and Drive is what gets you there....
xoxoxo
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